~oei

i got the sad news...my boyfriend's mom died this 2:17 in the morning
my bf's family is here in the philippines while he is there in london...
his mom died here.... he didnt even had a chance to be with her...

i wish i could fly over from here to where he is..

i know you need me sweetie i am feeling ur pain....even if you tell me you're just ok and that you're not sad...that's a lie...
i badly want to take every sadness and pain you feel..i want to bear all of those for you...please dont try to hide...

i am so sorry if im so useless as a girlfriend im always not there visibly whenever you need me
if only i could..i'll fly my way over there in london...
i am so sorry


i know you need me...and im just right here....im always here...
dont try to use your defenses on me coz i can see and feel right through you.....


im wishing i have a pair of wings... so i could be with you, save you,... and take you away...

i <3 u so much...

uhhhh!!!!!!!!


what the effin' hell is happening to my sucked-up pc's life?!?!?!?!


uhhh!!!!!

our USB card died!!! all of those freakin' USB ports retired as well!!

bullsh*t!!!
and?
my pc got invaded by a virus...again!!!!!

oh sh*t!!! sooooo much nice

and what's worse?

wtf!!

it needed to be reformatted...again!!!!!!


we had our pc reformatted for the 2nd time this month alone!!! uhhh!!!

evrythin' is just so damn crazy!!!
no more programs and all

my pictures, my files i havent had any back-up for those!!!

uhhhh!!!!!!!!

i hate this day sooo much!!!! arggghh!!!!

hahaha!!!!
hahaha!!!
at last tinopak na uli ako mag-drawing..nyahaha!!

hehe..my mech. pencil was out of sight for like a month..and i know it's just under my bed..the problem is,,im so lazy to get it...hehe...

...until yesterday,i came out of my lazy self...hehe! i lifted the matress and yipee!i retrieved my beloved mech. pencil...haha!

and i felt the itch again....!that itch!that itch!rofl!

my hands are workin' and shakin' again, baby! lol!

my lazy days are over..haha! i am such a sloth...im tired of pigging-out...hehe...

c'mon pencils!!keep on flowin' and movin' with me ^_~

i just dont know what's wrong again with me... i feel so hollow,, inside...again...

im feeling my extensive worthlesness again..

i dont want to feel this way...i think it's coming back again...

im denying it...i have to..

i just don't want to welcome the harrowing emptiness...
again.. :'(

i've had enough of those dark days..i already had this turning point...i dont want to come back to that life again..it's so painful to endure...:'(

please......dont steal the light that peeps..

and please i beg of the light that creeps at my sight..please dont fade..dont fade...:'(

i just opened up my DA account to check some new stuffs
ehehe! it really wasnt in my intention to write something here
hehe! my eyes just had this quick glance with my past journal still posted,,ahaha!that effin' agonizing journal,,,lol!

uhmm...well im so much happy for some reasons I'm not really sure of
ahaha!
first of all I got to see my fave band play live!
second: I had close encounters with my most loved vocalist -- Miggy Chavez!
third: my crush was with me all throughout the gig!..lol!
fourth: I had this releif 'coz I finally decided to talk to my stubborn amoré

hehe..that's all


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im still so much busy, i really cannot find any time to do some deviations to be posted yet...school is such a stressful matter to endure!lol!